I lean not on my own understanding
My life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven
I know that I can trust You so give me a heart to love You
I give it all to You God trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me
There’s nothing I hold on to
I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
This has been my prayer all week. For the Lord’s favor. His glory. His will. not mine.
I have had a lot of people ask me what my calling is exactly and to be honest I don’t know the specifics. I know God has given me a heart for the poor, the broken, those in jail, for kids and for art. I know He has given me big dreams. I know there is so much more of Him to experience. I also know He has called me into full time missions. I do not know where or what this looks like exactly. But I do know I will continue to pray until God answers, no matter how long it takes.
This is what I hope to get out of G42. I hope to continue to grow intimately with the Lord. I hope to learn even more how to activate Him inside of me. I hope to seek Him in all I do for the rest of my life so others come to truly know Him. To be His disciple to the lost, hungry and poor. I desire to cultivate even more of a habit with Jesus, I desire to continue to develop my discipline, and to stand on the promise God has given me. To take that promise and share it with others. The difference between sinking and swimming in those promises is that He has given us a place to stand, a place to rest and the only way I can fail is to stop praying and trusting Him.
Time for the honesty… I am more scared to leave for Spain than I was for The World Race. It is because now that I have experienced the Lord in crazy awesome ways and have already been stretched in my faith I know I am called to do more for His Kingdom. My eyes have been awakened and I have a responsibility to continue to be His hands and feet until Jesus returns. This doesn’t get easier as we mature in our walk with the Lord. I have no idea what to expect.
Do I feel qualified for Spain? heck no. Most of you have heard before that God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called. He also invites us to come to Him broken and He will heal us. Not the other way around. In other words- being a Christian isn’t a museum for the perfect, but a hospital for the broken. I may not feel qualified, but I know I am ready because I got Jesus on my side :] My dear friend reminded me that it doesn’t matter about the depth of our experiences or the location and time. What matters is what we learn from it and what we do with it… as long as we are seeking the Lord whole heartily and living a life that brings honor to Him. Praise the Lord.
So with that I took the first step of faith toward Spain and I bought my plane ticket. I will be leaving July 5th. That is only 5 weeks away. ekk! I still need to raise $5,441 to cover my expenses. Please consider helping me out, so together we can continue to expand His Kingdom!!! click here to see how to donate.
**Coming soon: my “GIMME 5” fundraiser challenge! :] get excited**