something I suck at doing.

Today, Andrew spoke such truth and he began by sharing a prayer from Sir Francis Drake…

Disturb us, Lord,

We are too pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when
with the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wilder seas
Where storms will show Your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.

We ask you to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push back the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.

This we ask in the name of our Captain,
Who is Jesus Christ.


After he read this and while we were praying I scribbled down in my journal: Father, no longer will my past be able to declare who I am. This has been a constant struggle for me my whole life, even before I committed to following Jesus. Of course as Jesus works Andrew’s title of his class today was “Detach from your past, attach to your future.” HA God, you are silly.

When Jesus said It is finished.” [ John 19:30 ] He meant it.

The only thing we are to take from our past is our God saying “I am the Lord, your God and I was there.” Our past proves to us Who is in charge- He knows. He was there too. God has trusted us with our experiences and the storms of life are oxygenating to our souls! it grows us to become more like him, so trusting Him back shouldn’t be hard.

Don’t get me wrong, I forget this promise. I forget to trust God. I forget to live it out. I fail daily. Just yesterday I let my past conquer me yet again and in return I felt guilty for blaming anyone but myself. so what did I do? I fought the lies (I wish I could say right away, but I did not). I stopped trying to seek the answer to the “why?” and sought the answer in knowing God. by saying over and over again “I trust You Lord, I know You are good.” I’ve seen this with my own eyes.


I believe in a world where poverty will be completely eliminated.
I believe in a world where alcoholism will no longer be a stronghold on generations of families.
I believe in a world where humans will no longer be trafficked for sex.
I believe in a world where I can truly live day by day knowing my identity. Knowing I am no longer rejected, but accepted.

How do I know this will happen?

It is finished.

The battle has already been won. Satan has already been defeated. Jesus AS A MAN went down to hell in faith and defeated the enemy. How did He do this? One by one He took Beelzebub’s own weapons out of his hands and intrusted us with them- the church, believers of Christ. And He did this as a man, not as God- unbelievable!!

“When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own house, his possessions are safe. But when someone stronger attacks and overpowers him, he takes away the armor in which the man trusted and divides up his plunder. [ Luke 11:21-22 ]

He used death in order to defeat death! We have this power in us as well. Fear is our weapon! Rejection is our weapon! Depression is our weapon! All the enemy has is words. We must chose to take satan’s words and turn them into words of the Lord. We do this through our authority in Him, our testimonies, striving to be like Christ. We do not fight the way the world fights. We take pride and jealousy and anger and unforgiveness – all just words – and we wipe them away from our families, our cities, the nations. We turn the weapons around, take our thoughts captive and just turn on the LIGHT.

Andrew told us to think of it this way- David was only a young small teenager and he overcame a giant. One young boy caught the fire. because He had faith. That was all it took. faith. trust. and One boy alone silenced one mouth. one huge mouth. one huge stronghold.

Jesus has given us this power.…He took it away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.” [ Colossians 2:14-15 ]

So what do we have to fear?

no matter how many children we see without food.
no matter how much pain we have from the past.
no matter how many times we have been fed the lie (whatever that lie is for you).
no matter how many nations don’t know God yet.
no matter how overwhelming life gets.

We all have a “Goliath” that keeps creeping up into our heads, that we keep constantly hearing and running from. NO MATTER HOW BIG it is we know we can beat it. because He already has for us. It is time for us to choose to stand up. to stop being divided and work together. to walk out of our past and into our future. Following Jesus is not for the weak at heart. It is not a sacrifice. It is a privilege. An honor. to fight for more than a country, more than a nation, but to fight for a God who is beyond good to us and whose love is beyond relentless for us.

In being Jesus’ Light, we will be a magnet for satan to come and fill our minds with LIES. this is a fact…

So what are your weapons?
What are you fighting for?

dare to be bold.
dare to be disturbed by the Lord.

because fighting for a battle that has already been won sure does seem worth fighting for.

5 thoughts on “something I suck at doing.

  1. Goosebumps! May God disturb our whole nation until we aren’t satisfied with nothing less than all God is and all he wants to do in and through us.

  2. If you keep submitting, God will get you where you need to go. If you keep seeking, God will do what needs to be done. _Mark Batterson

    “dare to be bold.
    dare to be disturbed by the Lord.” I love that last line Woody! It is so true.

    Breathe in the future and breathe out the past.

    Love you girl. Praying for you.

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